Amidst all these flashing lights...

Ever since I saw Lagerfeld Confidential with Mr. Lagerfeld putting on his signature rings, I've wanted to do the same.
Looking for rings so epic was a challenge.
I felt almost out of hope until I remembered a little shop called Topshop (well... Topman).
How did this incredible discovery slip my mind? No idea.
I walked by the SoHo store every day in July and I forgot it existed because I've been stuck in my hometown.
Going into the store wasn't an option for me, either, because I was living on a college student's budget... $0.

So taking a look at Topman.com, I found some rings I am going to purchase when 2010 brings me my 3rd paycheck.
Or perhaps my 4th... I still want a Nikon D3000.






Oh yes, and this incredible performance.

In these past few weeks...

I've come to a few revelations.
- FIT doesn't want me, FIDM does. I discovered this fact when I participated in December 5th's National Portfolio Day and met with both colleges.
I was easily devastated to find out FIT's representative thought my designs are too much.
They teach and mold their students for jobs in the fashion industry.
That's all well and good but I want to become my own designer. I want a career.
The representative said my designs aren't marketable. That he couldn't see my design on the rack at Saks.
He said I could sell one to Cher and not to 2,000 people.
When he said that I thought to myself..."Ok, and that's bad?"
He wasn't mean or anything, he just didn't see what I wanted to do.

I want to create designs for the pop/rock star.
Designing like that allows me to break rules and be unexpected.
I'm a runway/show designer.
I can think of something generic and wearable in 2 minutes of sitting on my ass.
That's no problem. I just want to challenge myself and bring something new to the Fashion World.

After meeting FIT's rep, I headed to FIDM right next door.
At this point I was scared to death the representative from there would tell me the same thing.
I thought if he wasn't impressed either, I would seriously have to make my life about styling.
So when I came out with my disclaimer and allowed him to open my last-minute portfolio (I made it the day before) I was petrified.
He took one look at the 3 designs I had together on the 1st page and looked up at me with a quickness.
He asked me who I thought he saw in those designs. I was ready to say "Lady GaGa?" but he said something I hadn't expected: "Beyonce."
Now, for me, that's nothing short of stunning. Beyonce is my favorite singer and has been for years. To see that she exudes through me even in my designs was incredible.
He ended up spending a well amount of time speaking to me and told me everything I was hoping to hear that cold ass morning.
See, FIDM was on my radar back in August but I took it off because I didn't want to go to L.A.
So my revelation that day was: If there is a school that is excited to work with me and give me training to build an actual career and name, I have to go there.
My sights are set there now.
And since Parsons wants foundational artwork (paintings, drawings) that I don't have - that's out of my reach too.
I think I'll be happy at FIDM. It's a place that embraces creativity.

- Another revelation is that Lady GaGa is fucking incredible. I found out about her around July 2008 when everyone else had no idea who the fuck she was. So I'm nothing short of a GaGa Monster. Oh and add this to my revelations list - Monster is my new favorite word.

- Ivory and white is becoming kind of an obsession of mine lately.

- I've worn about everything I want to in my closet so I should purge some things.

- I forgot how much I loved Ke$ha.

- I could really give a shit about what people think of me or what I have to say. I say what I want to so fuck you.

I leave and love with this final picture of GaGa-ness.



OH
and I bought The Definitive Book of GaGa Thursday night at 12 AM after my shift at Zumiez (where I sold $1,000+ in 4 hours! Ah!). I asked my grandma to order it for me for Xmas so she just transferred the money to my account earlier that day. Fucking exciiiited to get it. Bet your fucking ass I'm excited. EXCITED!

I like Rihanna

Doc Martens?

I've wanted these for the longest time!
Friday should be payday... I need to double check though.
Could be on the NEXT payroll.
But my aunt can get me some for around $40 down in Virginia Beach because she knows a friend who works at Journeys.

So this is what I will buy with my first paycheck!

This is what helped my portfolio anxiety

All night I've been racking my fingers to make the perfect sketches for my portfolio.
I've changed the way I sketch so I couldn't use the croque(s) I made in July.
So I had to make a new figure just so I make sure they're all perfect.

Thankfully it worked out and I made one proportionate and one that pleases me.
I just watched the video to this song (embedding is disabled... ??) and it cured my anxiety.

My Journey to the Fashion Institute of Technology Begins

I've been wanting to enroll at FIT for college since... I don't even know how long.
I finally got a MyFIT account so that means it's all happening now.
I'm crazy excited but nervous as hell.

My portfolio and in-person interview have to be ON POINT!
As my grades from previous years of High School aren't great, I must impress with my design skills.
Time to pull out the GaGa-Would-Only-Wear outfits and sketch them with great precision.

I took two classes as part of the Summer Live Program at FIT this past July.
I was one in a handful of boys to attend but that really didn't bother me.
It was probably the best summer I've ever had but now that I'm thinking about it, it's saddening to miss walking to this building everyday.



I have to get in!

I Began to Work

It's not too well-known by most.
It's not XXI.
It's not a place where I'm going to shop 24/7.
But..
It's incredible.
- I get commission.
- I get to work with fun people.
- I get to be fun.
- I get to play my music.

Bad first job? I think not.

I'm a Cashier, I Change Girls

I recently decided/tried to change how I do my figures in sketches
and it's been working out really well.
... Another one of my sketches I did in the last 10 minutes of class this morning.
Portfolio piece? Maybe.


I want the piece to have a screen-printed image of Beyonce on it.
Something like this.

Balmain Rip-Offs and McDonalds for New Moon

Now I saw this shirt before walking around our newly opened XXI Forever as well as rip-off jackets... But this just pissed me off. In the middle of the store this is facing out promoting a obvious image stolen from Christophe Decarnin's legendary jacket for Balmain. Yeah, I got loud in the store and yelled that it was a rip.

My friend works there and I was with her at the time... I could've gotten her in trouble but I would've denied knowing her. I'm also a little bitter they gave me the run around when I tried applying for a job there but whatever.

Middle finger, XXI. Middle finger.

In other weekend news...

I saw New Moon with a friend Saturday night. Yeah, Friday we got our tickets for Saturday and the teller told us 10:20. Not until I left my house at 8:40 did I realize it said 10:20 AM. But we caught a non sold-out 10:50 PM :) I read the book back in August so I was critical on everything they didn't show/added. Pissed me off on some parts.

It was cold and my friend wanted McDonalds so we drove all the way across the street (Wow) to get some.
I copied what she got and here it is: $1 4-Piece Chicken Nuggets, a Large Fry, and $1 Sweet Tea. Random.

So we ate in line waiting to go in the theater!

Rihanna Takes on Leeloo

Last night Rihanna performed "Hard" and "Wait Your Turn" at the AMAs.

She rocked a re-creation of Leloo's (The Fifth Element) during the exciting performance by the classic Jean-Paul Gaultier. Gaultier also designed the costumes for the 90's movie WHICH is one of my original favorite movies! The bandage-suit was paired with a lovely neck/shoulder piece that looked like it sprouted it's own lasers on TV. I'm too lazy to look at pictures so we'll leave that up for interpretation.

I like Rihanna lots, now.
Her new album is pretty good; definitely better than her previous ones and I've been a fan since Pon de Replay.
Pick up Rated R!!