Because Your Love, Your Love, Your Love is My Drug

As this year comes to a close... I've been looking back on possibly one of my best years yet.
2009 has been a year of change for me. It's been the year I decided to and have grown up.
I've accomplished a lot this year and I can only imagine what's to come this decade.
No idea what will happen this year of 2010 - College acceptance? College rejection? Who knows?
So I hope that myself and everyone else in the world will accomplish what we want this year and more.
Happy New Year, everyone! 2010 all the way!

Last week, I discovered a show I'm now obsessed with: Chuck.
I had to purchase the 1st Season after watching the Pilot and a few episodes online and now I can't wait for the 3rd. (I'm currently watching the 2nd on YouTube).
Also, Yvonne Strahovski is insanely hot.



I decided to cover my macbook with stickers.
It's been over a year since I've had this precious thing so I think it's time to personalize it.
I ordered a Lady GaGa 'The Fame Monster' stickers and just won some 'The Fame' ones on eBay!
Other stickers will come from my job.

I'm close to getting my Nikon! My paychecks are getting bigger! Yes!



I would leave with "Bad Romance" but that's already on my player.
Looking at the nominees for the Grammys 2010 Song of the Year I decided to leave with this:

To Get in the Mood for Christmas...

Sessions Presents: A Peter Griffin Christmas

That's what they say

First and foremost today, Avatar is officially one of my favorite movies.
I saw it yesterday and fell in love with it. It's pretty incredible and mind-blowing.
The story is fantastic - James Cameron used the Native American vs. Europeans in a space-age way.
He made the connection between the Native Americans and Earth to be literal and physical with the Na'vi.
I'm about to go download it and watch it again.


Nextly (yes, not a real word), I haven't been keeping up with my fashion designers.
So I looked at Style.com and found some impeccable pieces by Alexander Wang and DKNY.
I love these ones.

ALEXANDER WANG




DKNY




And here's Alicia Keys.

Amidst all these flashing lights...

Ever since I saw Lagerfeld Confidential with Mr. Lagerfeld putting on his signature rings, I've wanted to do the same.
Looking for rings so epic was a challenge.
I felt almost out of hope until I remembered a little shop called Topshop (well... Topman).
How did this incredible discovery slip my mind? No idea.
I walked by the SoHo store every day in July and I forgot it existed because I've been stuck in my hometown.
Going into the store wasn't an option for me, either, because I was living on a college student's budget... $0.

So taking a look at Topman.com, I found some rings I am going to purchase when 2010 brings me my 3rd paycheck.
Or perhaps my 4th... I still want a Nikon D3000.






Oh yes, and this incredible performance.

In these past few weeks...

I've come to a few revelations.
- FIT doesn't want me, FIDM does. I discovered this fact when I participated in December 5th's National Portfolio Day and met with both colleges.
I was easily devastated to find out FIT's representative thought my designs are too much.
They teach and mold their students for jobs in the fashion industry.
That's all well and good but I want to become my own designer. I want a career.
The representative said my designs aren't marketable. That he couldn't see my design on the rack at Saks.
He said I could sell one to Cher and not to 2,000 people.
When he said that I thought to myself..."Ok, and that's bad?"
He wasn't mean or anything, he just didn't see what I wanted to do.

I want to create designs for the pop/rock star.
Designing like that allows me to break rules and be unexpected.
I'm a runway/show designer.
I can think of something generic and wearable in 2 minutes of sitting on my ass.
That's no problem. I just want to challenge myself and bring something new to the Fashion World.

After meeting FIT's rep, I headed to FIDM right next door.
At this point I was scared to death the representative from there would tell me the same thing.
I thought if he wasn't impressed either, I would seriously have to make my life about styling.
So when I came out with my disclaimer and allowed him to open my last-minute portfolio (I made it the day before) I was petrified.
He took one look at the 3 designs I had together on the 1st page and looked up at me with a quickness.
He asked me who I thought he saw in those designs. I was ready to say "Lady GaGa?" but he said something I hadn't expected: "Beyonce."
Now, for me, that's nothing short of stunning. Beyonce is my favorite singer and has been for years. To see that she exudes through me even in my designs was incredible.
He ended up spending a well amount of time speaking to me and told me everything I was hoping to hear that cold ass morning.
See, FIDM was on my radar back in August but I took it off because I didn't want to go to L.A.
So my revelation that day was: If there is a school that is excited to work with me and give me training to build an actual career and name, I have to go there.
My sights are set there now.
And since Parsons wants foundational artwork (paintings, drawings) that I don't have - that's out of my reach too.
I think I'll be happy at FIDM. It's a place that embraces creativity.

- Another revelation is that Lady GaGa is fucking incredible. I found out about her around July 2008 when everyone else had no idea who the fuck she was. So I'm nothing short of a GaGa Monster. Oh and add this to my revelations list - Monster is my new favorite word.

- Ivory and white is becoming kind of an obsession of mine lately.

- I've worn about everything I want to in my closet so I should purge some things.

- I forgot how much I loved Ke$ha.

- I could really give a shit about what people think of me or what I have to say. I say what I want to so fuck you.

I leave and love with this final picture of GaGa-ness.



OH
and I bought The Definitive Book of GaGa Thursday night at 12 AM after my shift at Zumiez (where I sold $1,000+ in 4 hours! Ah!). I asked my grandma to order it for me for Xmas so she just transferred the money to my account earlier that day. Fucking exciiiited to get it. Bet your fucking ass I'm excited. EXCITED!

I like Rihanna

Doc Martens?

I've wanted these for the longest time!
Friday should be payday... I need to double check though.
Could be on the NEXT payroll.
But my aunt can get me some for around $40 down in Virginia Beach because she knows a friend who works at Journeys.

So this is what I will buy with my first paycheck!

This is what helped my portfolio anxiety

All night I've been racking my fingers to make the perfect sketches for my portfolio.
I've changed the way I sketch so I couldn't use the croque(s) I made in July.
So I had to make a new figure just so I make sure they're all perfect.

Thankfully it worked out and I made one proportionate and one that pleases me.
I just watched the video to this song (embedding is disabled... ??) and it cured my anxiety.

My Journey to the Fashion Institute of Technology Begins

I've been wanting to enroll at FIT for college since... I don't even know how long.
I finally got a MyFIT account so that means it's all happening now.
I'm crazy excited but nervous as hell.

My portfolio and in-person interview have to be ON POINT!
As my grades from previous years of High School aren't great, I must impress with my design skills.
Time to pull out the GaGa-Would-Only-Wear outfits and sketch them with great precision.

I took two classes as part of the Summer Live Program at FIT this past July.
I was one in a handful of boys to attend but that really didn't bother me.
It was probably the best summer I've ever had but now that I'm thinking about it, it's saddening to miss walking to this building everyday.



I have to get in!